The 365 Project

why are you so angry? didn’t you like your peanut? don’t you know how much i love you? why did you run away? why are you so far away? do you think i’d hurt you? don’t you know how much i love you? why did you run away? where are you always hiding? i try so hard to find you don’t you know how much i love you? why did you run away? why are you so jumpy? where do you go at night? don’t you know how much i love you? why did you run away? i promise i’ll never hurt you i’d keep you warm and

i wish i was as free as that nutjob on the dance, dance revolution he doesn’t care works up a sweat and laughs to himself out loud he’s in his own world they know him there they are beautiful pixels had a dream one time that i was naked and i could breathe underwater i wish i was as free as that nutjob on the dance, dance revolution bhagiti 4.26.07 toledo, oh

what happened did you feel that or was i somewhere else far away did you know how much i wanted to brush your arm and see if you were real i showed you something maybe i shouldn't have now you know what have i done and if you aren't really there i don't think i want to know at least i'll have this what happened did you feel that or was i somewhere else far away bhagiti 4.25.07 perrysburg, oh

last night i thought i saw a ghost flickering at the end of my bed something wasn’t right last night i thought i saw you floating over the lawn but it wasn’t really my room and it wasn’t my backyard last night i heard something scratching it was crawling through my walls something wasn’t right last night i thought i heard you howl at the moon but they weren’t really my walls and it wasn’t my moon and you weren’t really there and you weren’t really there and you weren’t really there and

there’s a hole i’d rather crawl into than face, deal or consume i’ll eat myself up sustained on my own failing there’s an energy that has no source it’s powerless yet fuels spasms and fears it dampens my sheets no mirrors for me, nothing to see that i don’t already know leave me alone this is not for you, it’s mine all mine all mine all mine this is not for you, it’s mine all mine all mine all mine bhagiti 4.23.07 perrysburg, oh

when we were kids, my brother and i clothespin card motorcycle ride up and down the street again each time losing a little bit more ride ride ride a little bit more every time ride ride ride a little bit more every time pushin' harder now, my brother and i credit card mortgage just to stay alive back and forth to work again each time losing a little bit more ride ride ride a little bit more every time ride ride ride a little bit more every time bhagiti 4.22.07 perrysburg, oh

the sun shudders, prometheus groans solar flare plucking base loop magnetic vibration a song driving worlds unseen do they dance? it's like that here 'cause no one atones some ugly duckling stuck in a sticky situation longing, needing to come clean deep in a trance as lost as we are still in our own homes bullets we're ducking as if shot from our own gun and stripped naked we're seen a sidelong glance old gods under gilded concrete domes accounting for nothing but someone's dull

here it is the eve of the end of all my dreaming and onward to inevitable purple bathers lingering the other day three vultures up in the tree behind my house i said hey no, not yet boys i don’t need you at this breast uncommon virtues like viruses like phantoms hang on lingering blue corpuscles tingling my leg that can’t stop jingling i let go of this soft machine what I gain I cannot feel as promises of tongues tastes intermingling and otherwise former dreaming bhagiti 4.20.07 –