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The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved

Join Alex Croxford on The Deeper Love Podcast as she guides women healing after betraying someone they loved. Through raw, compassionate conversations, The Deeper Love Podcast dives beneath the affair to the silence, the self-betrayal, and the parts of yourself you’ve forgotten. This is your space to release shame, face the truth, and begin again. With honest stories, intimate interviews, and deep guidance, The Deeper Love Podcast will help you rise from the ashes into love that feels safe, soft,

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S2#061 - You Understand Why You Cheated. So Why Do...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/10/06

When I was married to my ex-husband, I never knew how little I felt.I mean real emotions - the kind that make you burst into tears or throw something in anger, or laugh uncontrollably. When did you last do that? Because learning how to feel all the things can be such an important part of moving beyond shame, and really processing the why, the how, and the what next of your affair. So today I share the real story behind how I went from hiding my affair to speaking about it publicly - on social

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33:30

S2#060 - What Does Healing After Your Affair Actually...

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2026/09/29

What does healing really look like after an affair?Not the fantasy of “being fully healed”, not the obsession with timelines, and not the pressure to return to who you were before everything blew apart, but the reality we don’t talk about enough. In this episode, I’m looking at some of the ideas we have about what healing is supposed to look like after you’ve been the one who cheated. Maybe you think being healed means you’ll eventually stop feeling guilty about what you did, forget your affair

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26:54

S2#059 - I Know Why I Cheated. So Why Don’t I Know...

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2026/09/22

This episode speaks directly to the woman who can explain her affair with absolute clarity - the patterns, the wounds, the childhood conditioning, the emotional disconnection - yet still feels paralysed when asked the simplest, most confronting question: What do you actually want now?I unpack the profound difference between understanding the past and being able to choose your future, and why so many women like you are stuck in painful indecision, even after months of therapy, analysis, and

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25:50

S2#058 - How Did I Become the Woman Who Cheated?

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2026/09/15

This episode is a deep, unflinching exploration of the question almost every woman asks herself after an affair: how the hell did I become this woman?I break open the identity rupture that happens when the “good girl,” the responsible one, the achiever, the caretaker, the one who holds everything together… becomes the woman who crossed a line she never imagined she would. This is about so much more than cheating; I’m talking about the psychological, emotional, and relational blind spots that

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68:02

S2#057 - What a Betrayed Wife Taught Me About Shame,...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/09/08

Betrayal, alcoholism, shame, self-destruction, and the breakdown of a marriage.My guest this week is Amity Rose, and she’s been through all of the above, and via a lot of personal reflection, taught herself how to face her husband’s infidelity with clarity, compassion, and power. In our brutally honest conversation we dismantle the cultural narrative that treats cheating as an unforgivable crime, and instead reveal the deeper truth that none of us like to admit - cheating is a reflection on

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16:06

When You’re Doing the Healing… and He Isn’t

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2026/09/01

One of the hardest parts of the aftermath of an affair is feeling like you’re the only one doing the work.You’re reading the books. Listening to the podcasts. Going to therapy. Reflecting. Trying to understand yourself. Trying to repair what happened. And he might still be angry or shut down, overwhelmed or frozen. Or simply not ready to do that work with you yet. And yes, he is allowed to feel what he feels, but that does not mean you have to stop having needs too. In this episode, I’m talking

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23:02

Why Sex With My Affair Partner Got Me Out of My Head,...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/08/25

🌻This episode is taken from The Sanctuary - a private online community for women who’ve had an affair. Find out more and join today at https://www.alexcroxford.com/the-sanctuary— This is one of the most common experiences I see with women who've had affairs, and almost no one talks about it.You felt more alive in your body with your affair partner than you ever did with your husband.More present, more awake, more you. And now you're trying to make sense of what that means and whether you'll ever

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14:42

Am I damned for eternity & have to suffer for the...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/08/18

🌻This episode is taken from The Sanctuary - a private online community for women who’ve had an affair. Find out more and join today at https://www.alexcroxford.com/the-sanctuary. The part of you that feels like the worst person alive - the part that's been waiting for someone to confirm that yes, you deserve every moment of this - that's who this episode is for. In this episode, Alex goes directly at one of the most urgent questions in the aftermath of an affair: whether suffering is the price

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14:44

Should I stay & rebuild with my husband or leave and...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/08/11

🌻This episode is shared from The Sanctuary - a private online community for women who’ve had an affair. Find out more and join today at https://www.alexcroxford.com/the-sanctuary— It's the question that keeps so many women awake at night. Stay or go. Rebuild or walk away. And the more you turn it over in your mind, the more impossible it feels to answer. This week's question is one I suspect many of you are carrying right now — and the honest truth is, I can't tell you what to do. But what I

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54:24

How To Have The Difficult Conversations After An...

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2026/08/04

Nobody tells you how to have the conversations that come after an affair. The reveal is the biggest, followed by the questions that come after and the conversations that go round and round in circles and leave you both completely destroyed. The ones where you give every single detail, because you think that's what accountability looks like.In this episode, I'm joined by Eve Stanway - psychotherapist, divorce coach, bestselling author, and one of the leading experts in difficult conversations. Eve

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18:33

S2#051 – 6 Things I Believe About Affairs That No One...

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2026/07/28

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00:23:01

S2#050 – How To Forgive Yourself For Cheating (And...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/07/21

I was Googling at three o'clock in the morning how to forgive myself for cheating. And if only it had been as simple as Google giving me a list and then everything being right with the world. But it wasn't, and the truth is, self-forgiveness wasn't actually the thing that set me free.That might be uncomfortable to hear, because right now, forgiveness is probably the thing you want most. You want to forgive yourself, you want your partner to forgive you, and then you want to be able to

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00:20:48

S2#049 – "Once A Cheat, Always A Cheat" Actually True?

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/07/14

Once a cheat, always a cheat.If you've been unfaithful, that sentence is probably going around and around in your head. Maybe you're asking it about yourself. Maybe someone else has said it to you. And I think rather than brushing it aside, we actually need to look at it. Because the truth is, and I'll be honest with you, in some cases, yes. If the pattern underneath the affair isn't addressed, it can happen again. And that's exactly what I want to talk about in this

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00:29:30

S2#048 – The Year We Tried To Save Our Marriage After...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/07/07

The year after I told my then-husband I'd been unfaithful to him was the hardest year of my life. I pray to God I never experience a year harder than that.I don't think anyone talks about that year enough, because the moment the truth comes out feels like an explosion, but what comes after is total devastation. And it is so hard to navigate.In this episode I'm going deep into that year - The couples therapy on Zoom, the conversations we kept having that we didn’t realise were just

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00:28:10

S2#047 – How My Spiritual Awakening Helped Me Heal...

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2026/06/30

Seven years ago, I would have rolled my eyes at everything in this episode.I thought crystals were bollocks. I thought energy healing was bollocks. I thought past lives were definitely bollocks. I was a rational, logical, practical TV executive, and nobody could have convinced me otherwise.And then my life imploded, and I got desperate. And desperate women do things they never thought they'd do (like spend over £800 on a two-day retreat in a converted chapel in East London, covered in sage smoke

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00:30:15

S2#046 – The Affair Wasn't the First Sign Something...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/06/23

I want to take you back to 2019. Sat in Homerton Hospital, in the fertility department with my then husband next to me. Signing the consent forms for IVF.And the whole time, I was carrying the secret that I had been unfaithful to him.That moment, I can see now, contained the whole story. Because I was sitting there trying to create life whilst being completely disconnected from my own.The irregular periods, the fertility struggles, the rage at my own body for not doing what I needed it to do - I

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00:21:08

S2#045 – What Nobody Told Me About The Year After The...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/06/16

Everyone talks about the moment the affair comes out.Nobody talks about what happens next.In this episode, I'm going inside the year that broke me far more than the affair itself - the year I spent trying to repair, trying to make it right, and completely disappearing in the process.Because here's what I know now that I didn't know then: telling the truth was not the lowest point. The lowest point was the twelve months that followed, when I gave him everything - every answer, every

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00:22:58

S2#044 – After My Affair, I Thought The World Was...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/06/09

Six years ago, I genuinely didn't know if I wanted to keep living. The shame of what I had done felt unbearable. I couldn't think straight, I couldn't be present, and I couldn't imagine a future where I felt okay again.And yet today, I'm sitting behind a microphone telling that story publicly.So what happened? How did I get from there to here? Because I can tell you, it wasn't time. It wasn't understanding what went wrong in my relationship. And it definitely wasn't listening to podcasts.In this

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00:19:44

S2#043 – The Secret That's Eating You Alive

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/06/02

For two years after the affair, I told no one. Not my husband. Not the friends I’d call sisters, the ones who’d held me through my own heartbreak years earlier. I sat at New Year’s parties and weddings and birthdays, keeping it light, breezy, fine. And inside, I was dying. Dying of shame. Dying of guilt. Dying of the fear that if anyone really saw me, they’d stop loving me.In this episode, I talk about the secret almost no one names: not the affair itself, but the secrecy that comes after it. The

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00:22:45

S2#042 – How the pain of my affair led me to deeply...

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After... ·

2026/05/26

Why is a podcast about healing after betrayal is called The Deeper Love Podcast.In this episode, I'm answering that. At my core, I believe the detonation that an affair brings to your life can absolutely become the portal to the deepest love of your life. You don’t have to leave your husband, but you do have to be willing to face and heal the story that has been running your life, way before the affair happened. How do I know? Because I lived it.In the ep, I share the story of being three years

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